Concealed Carry... you just can't hide that weight...

I did this little video to see what I really look like. First there is the image in my mind, and that can't be right since it is stuck at about twenty-five to thirty-five. Then there is the image in my mirror when I shave and clean up for exiting the house - too close and concentrated and backwards of reality, no that isn't me either. So I take a quick video to see what I look like. Sure enough an old man, wearing loose fitting clothes (room to layer or grow into), and still following that bursting belly and breast fat through the door. Sigh.

This mornings weight, 234.2 pounds, blood pressure 152/81 and resting heart rate of 38 bpm. I did go for a heart walk, found I still want more air, but it could be my heart is just not efficient again. I had lots of foggy breath on the exhale. I stopped about two-thirds the way up the big hill and the minor ones, rested a bit at the top of the big one. Had no trouble going down hill. Didn't wear a watch, still thinking I am blessed to be able to meander around the block. Keep on working it.

My wife wanted to seriously talk, and she did...

Mostly about my failings, how our finances are, and that she was going to retire and wouldn't be able to buy groceries any longer. All things I have known about for years, and when I was young I would have been upset about it, I am very calm now. It all doesn't matter, I will be dead soon enough and she will be a widow and will have it all.

So we went over the money, the need for updated wills, and what she would expect to have to live upon when I am dead. She doesn't really understand, her friends have to tell her what she needs to do to get what she should have had me do long ago. The Disability came up again, seems she knows some other women that their husbands get disability payments and why am I not going to the VA to get mine. That was added to my plate, I will check into it.

I ended up going and chopping down the old garden, it will be grass next year, and moving the fence, the bricks I will get later for bordering the new garden. Then I went and got my walk in today, a very nice afternoon for it. Didn't need to stop before the top of the hill, makes me wonder if I should start moving out smarter, but I didn't bring my watch so I didn't even clock how long I was walking, but even if I recorded it, will I ever use that record for anything? Nope, it was the walk that was most important.

Not missed if you aren't there... they think you...

changed your exercise or the drill time. I was walking today, and it isn't as easy as it once was -- the breathing isn't good enough, or the heart doesn't pump enough, and I am resigned to getting worse until I get better. As I walked I waved at a lady from my old church - and I was sure I was visible but she never acknowledged the wave or my existence. Kind of like the Sixth Sense, I am dead and don't know it yet.

But I must keep walking and I must do better about preparing for my wife's widowhood. That will be tough. I can hear her telling me that if I had only listened to her, had checked with my doctor and did exactly what they said I had to do... she will be upset, and that has never been my intent.

The special reading glasses are from my mother, for Y2K and the special day, and I was looking for something in the Yellow Pages, probably a restaurant to go out and eat at. Gosh, I was so much younger then, only eleven years and a few months ago.

19 August 2011 woke 0623
weight 225.0 pounds
Blood pressure 140/67 Hr 44
Jog 42m47s 1 cent, Max 147 Avg 111, Above 5m32s Below 7m50s
INZONE! 29m24s, Calorie burn 557

20 August 2011 woke 0630
weight 226.4 pounds
Blood pressure 148/82 Hr 35
Jog 1h05m06s 3 cents, Max 148 Avg 112, Above 3m45s Below 18m43s
INZONE! 42m39s, Calorie burn 842

22 August 2011 woke 0700
weight 229.2 pounds
Blood pressure 151/72 Hr 38
Jog 46m58s, Max 136 Avg 103, Above 1m56s Below 33m43s
INZONE! 11m18s, Calories 517

24 August 2011 woke 0630
weight 227.6 pounds
Blood pressure 156/83 Hr 37
Jog 44m33s 51cents, Max 148 Avg 107, Above 2m21s Below 20m24s
INZONE! 21m49s, Calorie burn 533

Can't get the government to make me healthy...

13 August 2011 woke 0645
weight 226.8 pounds
Blood pressure 141/81 Hr 36
Jog 42m19s, Max 141 Avg 116, Above 5m51s Below 5m10s
INZONE! 31m18s Calorie burn 587

15 August 2011 woke 0630
weight 222.6 pounds
Blood pressure 147/76 Hr 43
Jog 1h01m57s, Max 137 Avg 115, Above 4m22s Below 6m22s
INZONE! 51m12s Calorie burn 850
Mowed yard

16 August 2011 woke 0745
weight 223.6 pounds
Blood pressure 143/90 Hr 46
Jog 42m00s, Max 135 Avg 109, Above 2m34s Below 9m56s
INZONE! 29m30s Calorie burn 525

17 August 2011 woke 0645
weight 223.6 pounds
Blood pressure 135/76 Hr 38
Jog 1h05m46s, Max 140 Avg 111, Above 3m47s Below 22m09s
INZONE! 39m50s, Calorie burn 847 27cents

18 August 2011 woke 0640
weight 220.4 pounds
Blood pressure 140/85 Hr 38
Jog 1h05m29s, Max 143 Avg 108, Above 5m33s Below 38m47s
INZONE! 21m08s Calorie burn 783 1 cent

Moving to Walk Plus... no longer jogging gently...

5 August 2011 Woke 0655
weight 223.8 pounds
Blood pressure 140/66 Hr 36
Jog 42m33s no heart monitor signal

8 August 2011 woke 0650
weight 224.0 pounds
Blood pressure 144/89 Hr 38
Jog 42m06s 1 cent, Max 143 Avg 114, Above 3m18s below 6m20s
INZONE! 32m28s Calorie burn 570

9 August 2011 woke 0645
weight 226.2 pounds
blood pressure 141/83 Hr 38
Jog 1h04m31s, Max 144 Avg 112, Above 6m19s below 21m38s
INZONE! 36m34s Calorie burn 840

11 August 2011 woke 0750
weight 225.8 pounds
Blood pressure 131/76 Hr 40
Jog (walk plus) 1h12m41s, 1 dime, Max 150 Avg 112, Above 7m34s below 31m12s
INZONE! 33m55s Calorie burn 950

Don't have a heart attack...

I was gently jogging and a woman called out from a bus stop to me, not to have a heart attack. Okay, I gave her a 'thumbs up'. Slow jog today.

1 August, 2011 woke 0630
Weight 223.0 pounds
Blood pressure 144/77 Hr 40
Jog 1h06m30s, Max 130 Avg 99, Above 06s Below 64m20s
INZONE! 02m04s Calorie burn 645 one penny

2 August, 2011 woke 0530
Weight 226.0 pounds
Blood pressure 148/78 Hr 41
Jog 58m42s, Max 154 Avg 122, Above 16m03s Below 1m31s
INZONE! 41m08s Calorie burn 897 one penny

3 August, 2011 woke 0635
Weight 225.6 pounds
Blood pressure 152/86 Hr 41
Jog 1h11m45s, Max 150 Avg 106, Above 2m50s Below 51m29s
INZONE! 17m25s Calorie burn 817 three pennies