Concealed Carry... you just can't hide that weight...

I did this little video to see what I really look like. First there is the image in my mind, and that can't be right since it is stuck at about twenty-five to thirty-five. Then there is the image in my mirror when I shave and clean up for exiting the house - too close and concentrated and backwards of reality, no that isn't me either. So I take a quick video to see what I look like. Sure enough an old man, wearing loose fitting clothes (room to layer or grow into), and still following that bursting belly and breast fat through the door. Sigh.

This mornings weight, 234.2 pounds, blood pressure 152/81 and resting heart rate of 38 bpm. I did go for a heart walk, found I still want more air, but it could be my heart is just not efficient again. I had lots of foggy breath on the exhale. I stopped about two-thirds the way up the big hill and the minor ones, rested a bit at the top of the big one. Had no trouble going down hill. Didn't wear a watch, still thinking I am blessed to be able to meander around the block. Keep on working it.

My wife wanted to seriously talk, and she did...

Mostly about my failings, how our finances are, and that she was going to retire and wouldn't be able to buy groceries any longer. All things I have known about for years, and when I was young I would have been upset about it, I am very calm now. It all doesn't matter, I will be dead soon enough and she will be a widow and will have it all.

So we went over the money, the need for updated wills, and what she would expect to have to live upon when I am dead. She doesn't really understand, her friends have to tell her what she needs to do to get what she should have had me do long ago. The Disability came up again, seems she knows some other women that their husbands get disability payments and why am I not going to the VA to get mine. That was added to my plate, I will check into it.

I ended up going and chopping down the old garden, it will be grass next year, and moving the fence, the bricks I will get later for bordering the new garden. Then I went and got my walk in today, a very nice afternoon for it. Didn't need to stop before the top of the hill, makes me wonder if I should start moving out smarter, but I didn't bring my watch so I didn't even clock how long I was walking, but even if I recorded it, will I ever use that record for anything? Nope, it was the walk that was most important.

Not missed if you aren't there... they think you...

changed your exercise or the drill time. I was walking today, and it isn't as easy as it once was -- the breathing isn't good enough, or the heart doesn't pump enough, and I am resigned to getting worse until I get better. As I walked I waved at a lady from my old church - and I was sure I was visible but she never acknowledged the wave or my existence. Kind of like the Sixth Sense, I am dead and don't know it yet.

But I must keep walking and I must do better about preparing for my wife's widowhood. That will be tough. I can hear her telling me that if I had only listened to her, had checked with my doctor and did exactly what they said I had to do... she will be upset, and that has never been my intent.

The special reading glasses are from my mother, for Y2K and the special day, and I was looking for something in the Yellow Pages, probably a restaurant to go out and eat at. Gosh, I was so much younger then, only eleven years and a few months ago.

19 August 2011 woke 0623
weight 225.0 pounds
Blood pressure 140/67 Hr 44
Jog 42m47s 1 cent, Max 147 Avg 111, Above 5m32s Below 7m50s
INZONE! 29m24s, Calorie burn 557

20 August 2011 woke 0630
weight 226.4 pounds
Blood pressure 148/82 Hr 35
Jog 1h05m06s 3 cents, Max 148 Avg 112, Above 3m45s Below 18m43s
INZONE! 42m39s, Calorie burn 842

22 August 2011 woke 0700
weight 229.2 pounds
Blood pressure 151/72 Hr 38
Jog 46m58s, Max 136 Avg 103, Above 1m56s Below 33m43s
INZONE! 11m18s, Calories 517

24 August 2011 woke 0630
weight 227.6 pounds
Blood pressure 156/83 Hr 37
Jog 44m33s 51cents, Max 148 Avg 107, Above 2m21s Below 20m24s
INZONE! 21m49s, Calorie burn 533

Can't get the government to make me healthy...

13 August 2011 woke 0645
weight 226.8 pounds
Blood pressure 141/81 Hr 36
Jog 42m19s, Max 141 Avg 116, Above 5m51s Below 5m10s
INZONE! 31m18s Calorie burn 587

15 August 2011 woke 0630
weight 222.6 pounds
Blood pressure 147/76 Hr 43
Jog 1h01m57s, Max 137 Avg 115, Above 4m22s Below 6m22s
INZONE! 51m12s Calorie burn 850
Mowed yard

16 August 2011 woke 0745
weight 223.6 pounds
Blood pressure 143/90 Hr 46
Jog 42m00s, Max 135 Avg 109, Above 2m34s Below 9m56s
INZONE! 29m30s Calorie burn 525

17 August 2011 woke 0645
weight 223.6 pounds
Blood pressure 135/76 Hr 38
Jog 1h05m46s, Max 140 Avg 111, Above 3m47s Below 22m09s
INZONE! 39m50s, Calorie burn 847 27cents

18 August 2011 woke 0640
weight 220.4 pounds
Blood pressure 140/85 Hr 38
Jog 1h05m29s, Max 143 Avg 108, Above 5m33s Below 38m47s
INZONE! 21m08s Calorie burn 783 1 cent

Moving to Walk Plus... no longer jogging gently...

5 August 2011 Woke 0655
weight 223.8 pounds
Blood pressure 140/66 Hr 36
Jog 42m33s no heart monitor signal

8 August 2011 woke 0650
weight 224.0 pounds
Blood pressure 144/89 Hr 38
Jog 42m06s 1 cent, Max 143 Avg 114, Above 3m18s below 6m20s
INZONE! 32m28s Calorie burn 570

9 August 2011 woke 0645
weight 226.2 pounds
blood pressure 141/83 Hr 38
Jog 1h04m31s, Max 144 Avg 112, Above 6m19s below 21m38s
INZONE! 36m34s Calorie burn 840

11 August 2011 woke 0750
weight 225.8 pounds
Blood pressure 131/76 Hr 40
Jog (walk plus) 1h12m41s, 1 dime, Max 150 Avg 112, Above 7m34s below 31m12s
INZONE! 33m55s Calorie burn 950

Don't have a heart attack...

I was gently jogging and a woman called out from a bus stop to me, not to have a heart attack. Okay, I gave her a 'thumbs up'. Slow jog today.

1 August, 2011 woke 0630
Weight 223.0 pounds
Blood pressure 144/77 Hr 40
Jog 1h06m30s, Max 130 Avg 99, Above 06s Below 64m20s
INZONE! 02m04s Calorie burn 645 one penny

2 August, 2011 woke 0530
Weight 226.0 pounds
Blood pressure 148/78 Hr 41
Jog 58m42s, Max 154 Avg 122, Above 16m03s Below 1m31s
INZONE! 41m08s Calorie burn 897 one penny

3 August, 2011 woke 0635
Weight 225.6 pounds
Blood pressure 152/86 Hr 41
Jog 1h11m45s, Max 150 Avg 106, Above 2m50s Below 51m29s
INZONE! 17m25s Calorie burn 817 three pennies

I did get a thumbs up on my valient try at jogging today...

First the postman commented on how far I run (part of it is his route) and then a boy on a tricycle with his buddy in the back and his hat on backwards, gave me a thumbs up and a cheerful 'carry on' with his bright smile. I chuckled and thanked him for the encouragement.

28 July 2011 woke 0717
Weight 228.0 pounds
Blood pressure 149/74 Hr 40
Jog 40m16s, Max 142 Avg 119, Above 10m22s Below 5m1s,
INZONE! 24m52s Calorie burn 584
Mowed yards

29 July 2011 woke 0755
Weight 224.0 pounds
Blood pressure Max 143/97 Hr 41
Jog 1h18m53s, Max 125 Avg 106, Above 7s Below 57m59s,
INZONE! 20m48s Calorie burn 915
yard clean up for the weekend of shooting instruction

Gee, don't I look like I need to lose forty more,,,

23 July 2011 woke 0433
Weight 223.6 pounds
Blood pressure 141/90 Hr 39
Jog 1h10m58s Max 150 Avg 108, Above 1m34s Below 47m41s
INZONE! 21m44s Calorie burn 852

24 July 2011 woke 0558
Weight 224.8 pounds
Blood pressure 143/80 Hr 37
Jog 40m37s, Max34 Avg 115, Above 1m54s Below 5m56s
INZONE! 32m46s Calorie burn 557

25 July 2011 woke 0745
Weight 220.4 pounds
Blood pressure 146/81 Hr 38
Jog 1h4m8s, Max 150 Avg 112, Above 5m34s Below 24m20s
INZONE! 34m15s Calorie burn 829
Blood pressure after (3+ min) 126/77 Hr 56

26 July 2011 woke 0445
Weight 228.6 pounds
Blood pressure 138/82 Hr 37
Jog w/HW 40m16s, Max 133 Avg 115, Above 1m35s Below 4m58s
INZONE! 33m43s Calorie burn 550

Took a day...

19 July 2011 woke 0718
Weight 226.8 pounds
Blood pressure 141/88 Hr 37
Jog 57m40s Max 150 Avg 121, Above 9m31s Below 28m46s
INZONE! 19m23s Calorie Burn??? 452!
Edged and mowed back yard

20 July 2011 woke 0605
Weight 226.4 pounds
Blood pressure 148/95 Hr 37
Read all day until 1 in the morning!

21 July 2011 woke 0845
Weight 224.6 pounds
Blood pressure 138/77 Hr 40
Jog 1h10m55s Max 135 Avg 118 Above 2m20s Below 10m15s
INZONE! 58m19s Calorie Burn 946

Foolin' myself... trying to out run the fat old man...

Doesn't work at all, he catches me at the finish line...

16 July 2011 woke 0630
Weight 226.2 Pounds
Blood Pressure 140/78 Hr 37
Potlatch State Park Picnic Bible Study

17 July 2011 woke 0500
Weight 233.0 Pounds (cream filled doughnuts!!)
Blood pressure 146/96 Hr 39
Jog 42m35s, Max 142 Avg 112. Above 1m25s Below 13m21s
INZONE! 27m48s, Calorie burn 547

18 July 2011 woke 0610
Weight 232.0 Pounds
Blood pressure 14982 Hr 37
Jog 40m32s, Max 144 Avg 122, Above 15m32s Below 3m8s
INZONE! 21m52s, Calorie burn 612

Working harder on Empire & Allies than jogging...

13 July 2011 woke 0450
Weight 229.0 Pounds
Blood Pressure 152/73 Hr 36
Motorcycle returned at Service Department

14 July 2011 woke 0635
Weight 227.6 Pounds
Blood Pressure 138/84 Hr 41
Jog 41m42s, Max 145 Avg 121, Above 12m38s Below 4m45s
INZONE! 24m20s Calories burnt 620

15 July 2011 woke 0730
Weight 227.0 Pounds
Blood Pressure 139/84 Hr 38
Jog 42m02s, Max 147 Avg 110, Above 2m43s Below 11m25s
INZONE! 27m54s Calories burnt 528
(a period of 54 bpm during part of jog - impossible?)

Just birds watching me as I jauntly jogging.......

10 July 2011 woke 0650
Weight 232.6 pounds
Blood pressure 136/90 Hr 39
Rest Day, it is Sunday

11 July 2011 woke 0645
Weight 231.6 pounds
Blood pressure 146/89 Hr 38
Jog 1h04m51s, Max 140 Avg 106, Above 1m10s Below 47m44s,
INZONE! 15m57s Calories burnt 730
Did exercises and stretches during commercials !!! Rock on!

12 July 2011 woke 0620
Weight 229.6 pounds
Blood pressure 161/88 Hr 38
Jog 1h12m35s, Max 143 Avg 110, Above 3m54s Below 38m22s,
INZONE! 30m18s 1 penny Calories burnt 904
Motorcycle is in Tacoma somewhere

Falling apart, sigh...

8 July 2011 woke 0520
Weight 229.8 pounds
Blood pressure 144/88 Hr 39
Jog 1h13m28s, Max 137 Avg 101, Above 2m24s Below 57m54s,
INZONE! 13m10s Calories counted 728

9 July 2011 woke 0515
Weight 229.0 pounds
Blood pressure 147/88 Hr 35
Jog 45m21s, Max 142 Avg 113, Above 7m36s Below 18m26s,
INZONE! 19m19s Calories burned 596

Seattle to Portland racers are all faster and thinner than I am.

Time to get back to work.

5 July 2011 woke 0650
Weight 232.0 pounds
Blood pressure 149/94 Hr 38
Rest Day

6 July 2011 woke 0536
Weight 230.8 pounds
Blood pressure 143/95 Hr 38
Too much eating, wife's friend visits
Rest Day

7 July 2011 woke 0830
Weight 235.2
Blood pressure 140/92 Hr 36
Jog 44m12s, Max 150 Avg 117, Above 15m24s Below 11m45s,
INZONE! 17m05s Calories burnt 625

Just the ol' man jog -- kind of.... jauntly...

3 July 2011 woke 0505
Weight 233.8 pounds (CAKE!)
Blood pressure 137/84 Hr 38
Jog 1h10m20s 1 cent, Max 133 Avg 106
Above 1m02s Below 48m04s
INZONE! 21m14s Calories burnt 823

4 July 2011 woke 0608
Weight 231.6 pounds
Blood pressure 129/87 Hr 39
Jog 1h06m48s 2 cents, Max 134 Avg 110
Above 3m24s Below 36m37s
INZONE! 27m48s Calories burnt 827

One Holy day, one holiday and just too much to drag around in the training ZONE,

Don't let them change the rules....

2 July 2011 woke 0653
Weight 228.0 pounds
Blood pressure 140/85 Hr 36
Jog 1h03m55s, found dime, Max 138 Avg 114,
Above 4m03s Below 14m 55s, INZONE! 44m57s
Calorie burn 858

Went to church games in Spanaway Lake Park,
the Referees kept changing the rules our team
came in last

Last two days of June, 2011

29 June 2011 woke 0730
Weight 230.4 pounds
Blood Pressure 122/75 Hr 44
Jog 43m05s Max 140 Avg 119, above 9m44s below 3m15s
INZONE! 30m06s Calories 626

30 June 2011 woke 0633
Weight 230.0 pounds
Blood Pressure 117/72 Hr 38
Jog 1h05m54s Max 147 Avg 116, above 8m38s below 8m21s
INZONE! 48m55s Calories 916 found one penny
Cut the lawns

Towards the end of the month, gains in jogging, Hr and breathing, for the year the trend is down about ten pounds from what it was the first four months of the year. Still need to make body weight exercises and stretching part of the daily routine.

The picture is from 17 July 2006, I don't look that slim now...

1 July 2011 woke 0650
Weight 228.4 pounds
Blood pressure 134/81 Hr 37
Jog slowly 43m43s, Max 142 Avg 115, Above 5m56s Below 12m05s,
INZONE! 25m46s Calorie 599

My wife moved the suitcoat buttons, taking up slack

Didn't seem that long ago I had moved the buttons back to the expanded position because the jacket wasn't hanging right and I was too, too big. But since the jacket needed cleaning, and some stain removal and my waist is shrinking again, she kindly moved the buttons, still roomy enough to carry concealed if I need to, and if I lose more weight I could get two guns under the coat.

28 June 2011 woke 0550
Weight 228.6 pounds
Blood pressure 136/74 Heart rate 38
Jog 1h12m48s, Max 158 Avg 116, Above 8m30s Below 7m33s
INZONE! 56m45s, Calorie burn 1011, seven cents found

27 June 2011 woke 0450
Weight 231.8 pounds
Blood Pressure 138/87 Heart rate 40
Jog 1h01m25s, Max 159 Avg 123, Above 18m12s Below 1m21s
INZONE! 41m52sm Calorie burn 944

26 June 2011 woke 0600
Weight 231.8 pounds
Blood pressure 132/73 Heart rate 44
Officially REST DAY

I am only braggin'....

Weight 229.0 pounds Woke 0630
Blood pressure 134/87 Heart rate 40
20 reps of basic 3
Jog 1h03m21s, found one penny, Above 4m37s Below 9m34s
INZONE! 49m11s Calories burnt 831, HUZZAH! HUZZAH! HUZZAH!

Got to get away from the house and the TV/Computer

Thank God for another beautiful day to gently jog, Amen.
Jog 1h07m29s, Max 141 Avg 111, Above 3m14s Below 17m37s. INZONE! 46m37s, Calorie Burn 863

Back home without my motorcycle, still...

The jogging was pretty consistent during the trip and back. Doctor's visit went well today, no more blood thinner, blood pressure is fine and no colostomy needed.

Weight 225.2 pounds, Blood Pressure 131/76 Hr 41
Jog 42m05s, Max 145 Avg110, Above 2m25s Below 17m43s, INZONE! 21m56s, Calorie Burn 518 Felt good, and like flying, nice pace and stretch, still just an old fat man but happy and needing a shower. Edged and raked yards before dinner.
June 23 at 9:25pm

Weight 226.0 pounds, Blood Pressure 126/76 Hr 42
Cut the yard with mower
June 22

Jog 1h5m14s, Max 121 Avg 101, Above 0m0s Below 62m25s, INZONE! 2m40s
Calorie Burn 669, Slow and steady -- Reunion Afterglow I will workout harder on the way back home. Y'all take care, I start packing now.
June 19 at 4:51am

I am a slacker, no umph in my step this morning, take a hot shower and eat, sleep.
Jog of 49m28s Max 123 Avg 106, Above 0.0 Below 35m25s, INZONE! 14m2s4
Calories gently heated up 569, found one penny, finches, redwing blackbirds and robins and some little dog's walking area - totally uncleaned after. Good Mornin!
June 18 at 5:33am

Jog 1h9m12s Max 152 Avg 111 Above 1m2s below 23m56s INZONE! 44m14s Calorie burn 873, Gold Finches, robins, squirrels, goslings and proud parents, Looks like it is going to be a hot one. Have a great day, because it is your day!
June 17 at 5:34am

From Laurel, Montana

13 June 2011
Jog 44m08s Max 145 Avg 113
Above 1m37s Below 9m21s
INZONE! 33m10s Calories 577

15 June 2011
Jog 51m26s Max 143 Avg 117
Above 1m46s Below 2m55s
INZONE! 46m45s Calorie Burn 729
Found one penny at WalMart

Working it a bit...

10 June 2011 weight 232.4 pounds, blood pressure 136/82 Hr 36
Jog 1h16m01s Max 130 Avg 104. above zone 4s below zone 63m32a
IN ZONE! 121m01s Calories 841

11 June 2011 weight 233.2 pounds, blood pressure 136/72 Hr 42
Jog 42m36s Max Hr 142 Avg 113, above zone 3m41s below zone 7m6s
IN ZONE! 31m50s Calorie burn 559 Dime found!

Gotta keep goin'

8 June 2011: Weight 233.0 pounds, Blood pressure 135/83 Hr 43
Jog 45m45s Max Hr 123 Avg 105, Above Zone 0.0 Below Zone 33m17s
IN Zone! 12m28s, Calories Burnt 515

Mowed both yards

9 June 2011: Weight 231.8 pounds, Blood pressure 131/89 Hr 42
Jog 44m37s Max Hr 133 Avg 112 Above zone 35s Below zone 7m42s
IN ZONE! 36m19s Calorie Burn 581

Edged and raked a bit

Did not feel like jogging, measurably...

Oh, I did want to jog before the rains come in, I did want to sweat and lose weight. But I felt a little tired. So I decided on a fun run, attitude is almost everything in perception. No hand weights, no constant pushing when the heart rate monitor says you aren't in the zone, and I took a camera, in case I saw something to take a picture of.

So I took a picture of me and some Scotch Broom in bloom. And I jogged, stretching out some but mostly ignoring the slow pace. Results? Well, the distance was the same as yesterday and I stopped for one picture, and then at home noted (recorded the lack of difference).

7 June, 2011 weight 233.0 pounds, blood pressure 134/88 Hr 40,
Jog free Run Fun, 44m29s Max Hr 119 Avg Hr 104,
Above Zone 0m0s, below zone 36m58s, IN ZONE 7m31s.
Calorie Burn 490

Need a shower and a nap. Thank you very much.

Ever onward!

5 June 2011, weight 231.6 or 234.2 pounds, blood pressure 141/77, Hr 42
Jog 1h9m11s, Max Hr 137 Avg Hr 111, above Zone 4m57s Below Zone 30m52s,
IN ZONE 36m22s found 1 cent Calories 873

6 June 2011, weight 234.6 pounds, blood pressure 144/95, Hr 41
Jog 44m13s Max Hr 137 Avg Hr 112, above Zone 2m22s below Zone 9m47s,
IN ZONE 32m4s Calories 577

Recording what I am feeling doesn't happen...

Okay, I missed a couple of days.

2 June 2011 weight 238.4 pounds
Blood pressure 36/80 Hr 39
Jog 44m13s Avg Hr 118
In Zone 33m10s Calories 638

3 June 2011 weight 236.6 pounds
Blood Pressure 131/90 Hr 41
Jog 44m29s Avg Hr 115
In Zone 32m6s Calories 600
cut front yard with reel mower

4 June 2011 weight 236.2 pounds
Blood pressure 140/84 Hr 42
Jog 1h14m33s Avg Hr 110
In Zone 46m29s Calories 926

Weight is getting solid as muscles start to tense and build,
need more exercises done instead of thought about, feeling like
I am not doing enough hard enough, but I was in the Zone longer today than I have been in the three preceding days. So I keep trying.

Can't smoke me! says my ol' Gunnery Sergeant...

1 June, 2011 woke at 0607
weight 237.2 pounds
blood pressure 138/91 Hr 38
Jog 1h9m13s found 2 cents

so slow that passing a fencing crew they called out "Slow down!" I responded that if I went any slower I would be stopped. They laughed and I smiled.

Slow pace but a longer distance. Max Hr 136 Avg 107
above zone 1m45s below zone 48m37s
in the Zone 18m52s
Calorie burn 817

Using lighted magnifier for check my watch results, the eyes are going?

Fear got to me yesterday... so I didn't go out...

I did exercises, the basic three, but couldn't get my butt out the door.
30 May 2011 weight 235.4 pounds,
blood pressure 139/93, Heart rate 43
Exercise 25x basic3

31 May 2011 weight 234.8 pounds,
Blood pressure 136/79, Heart rate 44

Gentle jog 46m54s found two pennies Max Hr 146 Avg 116
Time above 125 5m, time below 110 6m52s In Zone 35m01s, Calorie burn 655

Move furniture for dry fire practice, forty rounds at AQT, positions done

Took a rest day, bought Hr Monitor for pace...

27 May 2011 weight 235.6 Blood pressure 139/100 or 140/94 Hr 41
Rest Day, just because I was lazy

28 May 2011 weight 239.6 pounds Blood pressure 138/88 Hr 39
Jog long 1h19m31s found one dime and five pennies
wore 36x30 Dickie blue jeans cause I could, still fat
bought a Polar RS300X for pushing training pace

29 May 2011 weight 234.2 or 235.8 pounds Blood pressure 144/95 Hr 39
Jog with Hr Monitor 43m44s found one penny
Max Hr 131, Avg 110, Max 83% Avg 70%, Hi 79% Low 70%
Time in Zone Above 125 1:33 Below 110 9:12 In ZONE 33m46s
Calorie burn 562

Hello, how is your improvement coming?

Mine is limping along, my wife and I laugh a lot about that. I am so lazy.

25 May 2011 weight 233.0 pounds, blood pressure 137/73, Hr 46
Jog 47m29s found one nickle

26 May 2011 weight 234.4 pounds, blood pressure 142/85, Hr 43
Jog 1h11m49s no coins found

I lie to myself and tell me that I am stretching out a bit, a very small bit, have to think about it to make it happen but I am glad I went the longer road today, nice day for it and have to thank the Lord for that.

Good intentions, bad form..

23 May 2011, weigh 234.0 pounds, Blood Pressure 128/80 Hr 41
Jog 47m27s Yard and Roof work

24 May 2011, weigh 236.0 pounds, Blood Pressure 131/88 Hr 48
5x3, 10x3 Jog 46n10s

Sunday and God is Good, all the time...

Took the rain day as a goof off day yesterday, it really wasn't bad enough to stop me, but I am easy to sway to the bad side. I did some experimenting with the Furey exercises.

21 May 2011, weight 239.0 pounds (upon second weighing, warming the machine up)
BP 136/69 Hr 39
Rest day

22 May 2011 weight 238.4 pounds (see above) BP 147/85 Hr 43
second wake up weight 237.4 pounds, BP 148/92 Hr 45
Morning 10 reps of Furey/Atlas basic three - need to work on form
Jog in evening 46m52s felt stronger push off and stride, but it is only an illusion

Big Belly Billy has been missing on this blog...

Which hasn't helped this person's fitness for living a bit longer.

19 May 2011 weight 240.4 pounds, BP 145/94 Hr 38 Jogged 48m33s

20 May 2011 weight 240.0 pounds, BP 149/95 Hr 43 Jogged 48m21s

My wife answered the telephone at 6:30 this morning, and spent thirty minutes talking to her minister from Germany, who has been preaching in Alaska fhttp://www.blogger.com/img/blank.gifor the last few years. When it came time to sending their regards my wife referred to me as "Big Belly-ed" no longer a slim trim fighting machine, which is long ago and far away. Sigh.

Anyway, I am a little excited by the idea of doing USA4corners in September, while my wife is in Korea. And stopping in San Diego to see my son's family after the last corner, recovering and then riding north on I-5. Sounds like a plan. Cost for record is $100, then gasoline. Practice for this run is the Dungey Family Reunion in Illinois near my cousin's home.

I need to start exercising during the fuel and rest stops, because the body doesn't move enough while seated on aircraft or motorcycles, so Matt Furey is a basic three, and I will have to do my first today. Wish me luck, going to do it or die trying.

A sad mess I am...

Almost Mother's Day, and I weigh 244.2 pounds, let me blame it on my Thyroid and its destruction at the hands of the blood pressure medicines. Probably no truth in that, but it would be better than I thinking that I am not moving enough or eating too much or just sitting around watching mindless television for my education.

7 May, 2011 woke 0530, wife is off to early prayer and church cleaning.
Weight 244.2 Pounds, all mine, sixty extra pounds to lug around.
Blood Pressure 146/86 Heart rate 40 bpm

Have two priorities for use of computer, Family Tree, and Quicken Accounts

Have one priority for exercise - daily jogging, getting better, faster, longer

Still can I concentrate on so little or will I be distracted? Yeah, don't bet on it.

Yep, not hard enough on myself yet....

Weight 240.8 pounds, Blood pressure 143/79 Hr 37, jogged yesterday 46m47s jogged today 49m27s found no coins on either day. Mowed and edged backyard. I am just fading away. Think I will go shooting this afternoon, my wife wants me to attend Men's Bible Study tonight.

Beautiful Day in the neighborhood, would you like...

to be my neighbor? In FarmVille, although I am never sending a broadcast out again, disturbing the tranquility of the FORCE and the FARCE.

12 April, 2011 WEIGHT 243.0 Pounds, BP 131/74, Hr 36
Jog gently 1h13m13s no coins, one walker, one lady jogger, six dogs and Sunshine!

Need to fix cabinet hinge, shave & shower, change firearms registration on Post, continue to live outside the walls = edging and mowing backyard.

Need to try exercises 3x X reps and chinups and pullups --- TODAY!!

National Propaganda Radio is not in the KNOW...

Before my jog today, I was listening to KPLU for Jazz, but at three the NPR comes on to dull the education of the masses. The phrase that caught my ear was "and even if you could get a balanced budget with income meeting the expenses, you would still need to borrow money to pay the interest due on what we borrowed before." I know there is someone being paid lots of money for balancing the NPR budget, and that he/she isn't the same person writing the Liberal Lies for NPR release. Sad, and Congress agreed not to cut that out of the budget, and you wonder why the Chinese are improving every year, and we aren't? Congress doesn't know what an education is... hmmm.

Just saying people working the broadcast at NPR, I have my personal budget made so I pay my interest, bills and liabilities against my income, and when that isn't enough I go and find more work at higher wages, you probably need folks like me to start talking on NPR, don't you? At least highlight the errors before they rock the economy.

11 April, 2011 Weight 241.8 pounds, BP 151/84 (income tax prep) Hr 40 woke 0610
Gentle Jogging in the gentle showers 47m20s no coins and I was looking.

Standing here a little light headed, eat a cookie...

It was a long drive yesterday to Bickleton, Washington for a meeting of the RWVA instructors to pick a new State representative for Appleseed. I wanted to donate my two Liberty Training Rifles, Remington 597's and a dummy drill rifle for positions. Then the long drive back.

The long time thinking, long conversation with wife upon my return made me want to look at the side effects of my medications, sure enough one of them looks bad - that will no longer attack my body, it is gone. I also need to continue to jog, and work on the diet, lose the weight and stay off the recliner in front of mindless television and commercial interruptions - why am I paying for cable? Oh, my wife has some entertainment choices. They do commercial interruptions too, but the women are hot.

I needed to look at carrying the heavier pistol, so I started looking at belts to use for concealed carry under the fat man trousers, I had to start laughing, when I was looking good at about 193 pounds (still running like an old man, but better than now) I had cut new holes in my belts so I could continue to wear them, too cheap (I like to use frugal but cheap works) to buy new, now I don't want to tell you which holes I am using but they aren't the once self cut.

I did jog with hand weights for the fourth day in a row. Sure Jogging shoes should be well cushioned so they aren't Jarring shoes.

9 April, 2011, weight 237.0 pounds, BP 124/84 Hr 52 (left over from dream? or time to take a one day rest?) Jog, felt slow and I was ponderously plodding... my wife says walking would be enough, but she just doesn't want me to hurt myself unless I could get more disability pay... which the incompetent Congress decided not to pay if the government shutdown. Ah, well, the Republicans and the TEA PARTY have CAVED they are as Craven as the Democratic Party, time to bring the Legions back and restore the Constitution of the United States against its domestic, no matter where they were really born, enemies. Oh, got carried away, the jog was 49m56s no coins found but the dogs were in fine form.

8 April, 2011, weight 236.2 pounds, BP 116/64 Hr 47, jog was 48m44s 1 penny found. Spend much of the day driving to center of Washington State and home.

I only have to get a job, work, pay taxes and die...

My wife's anger at my position in life is almost unbearable.

Weight 239.0 pounds, BP 128/65 Heart rate 45. Gentle jog 47m29s 1 penny.

FEAR!! all that holds me back is FEAR!

6 April 2001 weight 241.4 pounds Blood pressure 120/84 Heart Rate 44 bpm.

Jog 49m00s

April Fools, and that is all that needs to be said...

Don't you know that I Xtrmly dislike (HATE being too strong an emotion) being a fat waddling old fool jiggling down the road. But I have to thank the LORD, that I am gently jogging down the road - for my betterment and in spirit with all those that can't, don't or won't do what little I am able. Amen.

I have a Prayer Breakfast invite from the International Gideons, Tacoma Chapter, at Elmers at seven tomorrow morning. I will be there, although since I have a new translation red letter edition of the Bible I will likely let them give their Blue New Testament to another seeker. I hope I can find some utility for the distribution of the Word. I will see.

March 31, 2011, weight 241.0 pounds, BP 105/63 Hr 43. Did not exercise, saw doctor for drop off of X-rays, no consultation, test for clogging, oops! clotting, I passed, thirty days til next test, continue 9units in the evening until. Watch for side effects. Don't read those things, you won't take the medicine. Kind of like those software agreements. I did go see Sucker Punch, went to sleep, woke and enjoyed the strange feast of beauty and ugly before my eyes. Movie is only recommended for 18 to 24 year old males in the military in Afghanistan - send them a copy before the bootlegging takes over - which I am probably too late to advise.

1 April, 2011, weight 242.4 pounds, BP 122/69 Hr 44. Reading two Bibles comparing the translations and flow of words and song (poetry). Maybe I should read more and dump the pills? I finally get off my fat.... and put some jogging shoes on, Adidas of course. My jog is between rain storms, wet road, the pump beneath the house has turned on and is pumping out water. The day is good and gray, but no droplets nor pelting precipitation. My mind is on war and remembrance, not the television show but explaining why I do what I do when I do it. Like preparing a testimony for a trial or a sermon on why something is better than something else. My mind doesn't run on empty, my body can only drag it along. Happy jogging, jiggling, giggling and gasping on down your road. My son races tomorrow, hope he feels fine. I will pray for him.

Today

My Healthiness.

Yesterday's jog was 47m57s and a penny found.

Not really using my watch except to time my jog...

I often thought in my once regimented life that when I retired I would never wear a watch again. Or, that I would wear three piece suits and have a large gold pocket watch with a fancy fob, that I would sport around town impressing the beautiful young ladies. They are all glued to their latest electronic tether, for socializing beyond bacterial reach. The world changes but not my view, I seem so locked into yesterdays.

March 26 I weighed 240.0 pounds, BP 123/72 Hr 46, Bible Study and rains no run.

March 27 I weighed 241.0 pounds, BP 136/87 Hr 44, Church and day of Rest, no run.

March 28 I weighed 243.0 pounds, BP 124/83 Hr 43, watching my grandson (who is bored watching two little old people on a computer monitor - talking!) show us how he can JUMP! off of the floor now, his mother laughs proudly. It makes me want to get to Hawaii and see it for real. So I go jog, just 47m45s and find one quarter on the ground. Good feeling about being out, the day and the run. So good that after a shower I take my rolled coins to the Credit Union and visit the hospital to get a copy of the report of the chest x-rays that seem to be bothering their fine staff. The emergency room was full! I went to x-ray and found that they will burn a disc with the report for me to give my doctor or study at my leisure, like I know what I would be looking at. Yes, of course I will look, and remain sure that I will not do much but continue to run. The medications are too much about symptoms and not about cures. In the end, no one can cure death, and all the wrinkle creams and make ups may make me seem beautiful - but I am only good looking when I share my love. That doesn't come in a bottle with child proof cap.

Beautiful day for jogging gently...

Contractor came by, found something broken, fixed it. He was given the four things we want done, in the order of need, with the idea we need him to give us estimates and bids. I went for my jog at two, came back in 47m57s, pleased with the day, the thoughts and the jog. Felt strong and readier than the first two times this week. What has changed was a rest day, except for digging, and no medications except for thyroid one. If my blood pressure was too low yesterday I can blame it on the drugs - look at the warning labels for side effects. You would begin to wonder if they forgot the "do no harm" part of the doctor's oath. I bought Lotto tickets, $312 Million on winning MegaMillion tonight, wish me luck. Picked up my blood thinner and Cow Manure for the gardens, looking for chicken but they didn't have it where I looked.

Strange day, only going to putter around in garden...

March 24, 2011 woke 0610

weight 239.0 pounds, blood pressure 125/85 Heart rate 49
take medications
feel faint and light headed
blood pressure 91/61 Heart rate 49
nap, eat breakfast, read
1050 blood pressure 111/75 Heart rate 69
lunch -- go putter in garden, sweating too much
1500 blood pressure 132/80 heart rate 70

Day two, a beautiful day for daydreaming...

So I didn't go as fast as I should have, but I was out there. My weight today is 241.4 pounds, blood pressure while reading about Joshua, 112/64 my heart rate was 48. The heart rate means I am not catching up to yesterday, I am so out of sync. I did the normal morning medications, wandered the internet, played one war game. Then I moved a couple of chairs, knocked out 20 reps of the basic three, need to do minimum of fifty but am taking it slow and the stomach is really in the way. I go for a jog, slowly and gently and drift off into daydreams, so 50m33s. But I was out there, the day was just beautiful and my sweatshirt was too hot. Now about the economy, either I am losing my telescopic vision or people don't throw coins away like they once did. But two jogs and no coins? Something isn't right.

My son once asked about my marathon time, this was the first one I ever ran, still remember the fourteen year old girl that ran with me about five miles before we hit eighteen miles, she turned and said good-bye and ran off leaving me in the dust. I was probably slowing down too much. I was thirty at the time. A bunch of family was waiting patiently in the October cold, and I ate a whole half gallon of ice cream as my just reward.

I am unraveling... just like that favorite sweater...

Yeah, really. So today is March 22, 2011. Weight is 241.4 pounds, blood pressure after sitting reading some Bible verses, 127/87 with a heart rate of 42 beats per minute. I call a Handyman, he comes out to do the hard stuff, draining the swamp under the house, my wife decides she wasnts new flooring in the kitchen and bathrooms, linoleum not tile (anther day, getting rid of the water is primary now). When he goes off to buy the sump pump and hoses I go for a jog. Just a gentle jog. Still need to do it daily, not skipping large pieces of my life. Around the block, 47m17s, no coins found, no breathing problem, no heart attack that I know about. I do think that crossing intersections I go faster if a kind motorist is waiting on my passage. Feel good about the distance, the time, the jog, feet are fine I don't hurt. Washed all the clothes when I get back. Sent in the report on my evaluation of the treatment I received from Mr. Allen, PA at the emergency ward at Madigan Army Hospital. I rated him high, only expressing my disappointment in not knowing what is wrong with my lungs and the xrays that isn't showing up in my doctor's office nor on the xrays on the St Clare Hospital machines. But I figure if I am dying I don't want to know, I am committed to that end and living is all I can really affect.

Okay, feelling better so this is where I tell my secrets...

I am disgustingly FAT!. Weighed in at 247.6 pounds yesterday, sigh (that was the sound the scale made as I stepped off). So I went out and gently jogged around the big block, 49m49s and one penny found. It was good when I got back showered and changes I noticed almost all the swelling in my feet was gone. That is an indicator.

So today, weighing in at 241.4 pounds, in this corner of the world, Earl!!! Loud applause. Raining outside, hope for a break in the afternoon, but after Bible reading and breakfast, chased off of television by demented Charlie Sheen and Momarra Qadaffi, I started the treadmill and healthrider exercising, ten minutes on treadmill, 3 degrees, three mph or more, 5 minutes on HealthRider do it four times, result, light sweat and one hour of exercise done. Life is good, Thank the Lord.

Ah, it doesn't rain on my head...

Went and got out of the house, mail and banking, and getting put on the Space A list at the AFB (for Hawai'i) came back and later went to jog gently. Total time on the road, 48m 29s no coins found. Good to be out, tightened up too much Sunday by not exercising, but one has to return to physical perfection slowly.

I have been feeling better so have no excuse...

I am a very fat old man, the scales shout at me that I am too heavy, get off! 236.4 pounds this morning. Blood pressure isn't bad, 133/80 and heart rate is 43 beats per minute, sitting. I did my farmville chores and got out the door and down the road, and jogged a whole 47 minutes and 10 seconds - slow jog but I was back on the road. Good stuff for many reasons.

I showered, shaved and put my teeth in -- got my pistol case with lots of ammunition and went to the range to exercise my skills. I love the accuracy of the Ruger Mark III and the Colt .45, the 9mm is okay but I am not shooting competition with it ever. But then I don't compete much anymore. Just glad to be alive.